Wanted to share my baby bump :) 29 weeks pregnant already.. He is a big boy! Xo

J was found guilty in jenas trial!!!!!

He is being sentenced in June.

I’m so happy for jena, she deserves the truth to be told and justice. Now it does not matter what happens in my trial because he will be punished for doing something bad to someone and that’s enough for me.

I’m a point now where I have more important things o consider in my life and letting that night and that man hold a piece of my memory and my life is not acceptable anymore. Life is made up of the good and bad and the good right now for me is worth a few bad. That moment and that night are no longer important. My future, my life, my baby are important and screw J. He will get what he deserves and people will know what he did to jena, to me and whoever else and that’s all I want.

Ladies, there is justice. Jena is proof! Xo

Preliminary hearing is done and we are going to trial. Part of me was hoping it wouldn’t so I wouldn’t have to go through being on the stand again. But nothing I can do now.

I was on the stand today and it was horrible. I couldn’t remember half of the things I had said on my statement and the hospital a far as little details.. And the defense hammered on it.

The asked weird questions and I felt trapped. It was not something I ever want to go through again…

Got a call today, preliminary hearing has been set again for jan 27 now. I was dreading that call..

We didn’t get to the hearing last week. It is being rescheduled today.. Jena had hers. She was really upset but she said she felt amazing once she was done. That’s good. I was a wreck all day waiting to go on the stand and now I have to go through it all over again.. I just want it to be over.

Preliminary hearing tomorrow… Trying not to freak out too Badly because of the baby. Wish my boyfriend was more considerate.. This is really hard..

Hey, thank you so so much! I’m trying not to get too excited because it’s still early but really I am excited :) thank you for saying that I appreciate it!

As for the trial I have court on Friday for the first pre trial which will determine if there is enough evidence to go on with a trial . I have to give my statement and be cross examined an I’m just trying to really not stress so that I don’t lose the baby. But it very hard not to be worried and nervous. And as for you, you did the best thing for you and that’s all you can bet do so be proud at your courage , you are the most important person don’t ever forget that! Xo

Went to the hospital Christmas day because I have been having really bad pains in my lower stomach and my period is late so I took a pregnancy test at 6am Christmas morning and it was positive. Worried that something might be wrong due to the pain I’ve been having we went to the hospital. They confirmed that I am pregnant (about 8 weeks) and we checked to make sure the pregnancy is in the right place (not in the tubes or something) and that I didn’t have any cysts. Everything is good! So I am going for a proper ultra sound soon to check everything else. Tim got to see the tiny little thing that is our baby too. 

This was not planned and it’s not great timing and I’m having a lot of freak out moments and moments of denial but I guess there isn’t much we can do but make it work. So now I need to probably drop school or try and find a full time job while I’m finishing up this year so that we can get a mortgage and buy a house. Our little apartment is way too small for a baby. So I guess here is the rest of my life as a mother :)

I hope the stress of this trial is not too much, I need to stay stress free given all my health problems to keep this baby healthy and avoid miscarriage.

I just took a home pregnancy test. It’s positive.